Lucky..?
I was thinking about how lucky I really am in life..
Monday, the restaurant I am (was) working at, exploded.. there was some people injured and stuff. I was lucky I was off that day. A friend made a comment making fun of how I just "escaped dead".. and that made me think that altough this one wasn't really a close call, I've certainly had quite a few of them.
I've almost died several times, and each of those I've thought of myself to be really lucky. But somehow I feel that that's as far as my luck goes.
By simple things as saying that I've never won anything in my life, to more complex situations.
For example.. that of the restaurant I am (was) working at exploding. They said they could sponsor me for my visa extension which is just what I want.. and then this happens.
At the moment I haven't heard anything about what's going on or what's gonna happen, and I have no means of contacting anyone.
Now, luckily I had a part time at the Four Seaons.. and the housekeeping manager has been giving me a full time schedule for what happened (he even offered me to go back full time to work there).. thing is.. I don't really want to. I'll do it if there's no other choice.. but I'll try to avoid it.
Money.. I always have enough to get by.. but when I start making some savings, something happens and I go back to nothing.
Then, girls.. seems like every single time I find one that I get to love, I can't be with her.. it's happened before (Jaz and Brenda) and it's happening again.. I like her a lot, and she just doesn't care about me. I don't know if it's even worth to keep trying..
I want to stay here in Canada longer, but things ain't looking too good for the close future. I haven't found where to live, job is uncertain and the visa thing seems to be getting more complicate without a sponsor (which I don't have yet). Not even where to live, 'cuz I have to move out in November.
Meanwhile, weather is getting colder. In the morning on the way to work you can see how flowers and plants are all frosty. We're getting under 0 already. Time to get warm clothes out of the closet once more.
So, I think I missed a little bit my point about being lucky.. but that was mostly it. I've managed to keep alive, but always missing the good parts of life.
I miss my family and friend. Thank God Victor came to visit and we had a blast! Best week I've had in a real long time!!
Talking, drinking, chillin'.. and those fun times at the apartment.
Good times
Monday, the restaurant I am (was) working at, exploded.. there was some people injured and stuff. I was lucky I was off that day. A friend made a comment making fun of how I just "escaped dead".. and that made me think that altough this one wasn't really a close call, I've certainly had quite a few of them.
I've almost died several times, and each of those I've thought of myself to be really lucky. But somehow I feel that that's as far as my luck goes.
By simple things as saying that I've never won anything in my life, to more complex situations.
For example.. that of the restaurant I am (was) working at exploding. They said they could sponsor me for my visa extension which is just what I want.. and then this happens.
At the moment I haven't heard anything about what's going on or what's gonna happen, and I have no means of contacting anyone.
Now, luckily I had a part time at the Four Seaons.. and the housekeeping manager has been giving me a full time schedule for what happened (he even offered me to go back full time to work there).. thing is.. I don't really want to. I'll do it if there's no other choice.. but I'll try to avoid it.
Money.. I always have enough to get by.. but when I start making some savings, something happens and I go back to nothing.
Then, girls.. seems like every single time I find one that I get to love, I can't be with her.. it's happened before (Jaz and Brenda) and it's happening again.. I like her a lot, and she just doesn't care about me. I don't know if it's even worth to keep trying..
I want to stay here in Canada longer, but things ain't looking too good for the close future. I haven't found where to live, job is uncertain and the visa thing seems to be getting more complicate without a sponsor (which I don't have yet). Not even where to live, 'cuz I have to move out in November.
Meanwhile, weather is getting colder. In the morning on the way to work you can see how flowers and plants are all frosty. We're getting under 0 already. Time to get warm clothes out of the closet once more.
So, I think I missed a little bit my point about being lucky.. but that was mostly it. I've managed to keep alive, but always missing the good parts of life.
I miss my family and friend. Thank God Victor came to visit and we had a blast! Best week I've had in a real long time!!
Talking, drinking, chillin'.. and those fun times at the apartment.
Good times

